I Just Love U

Can't sleep again... gosh really can't get U out of my head... I should know that I'm not worthy, I should realize that U're out of my league.. especially U've got someone else by your side and I should just leave both of U alone... but why can't I stop loving U? Why can't I stop caring about U?

I really don't know why... I just know that I'll always care for U... U said nothing last forever? Well, U'll just never know how much I care for U... 

I just love U and that's all I know....

Did U Ever Know???

Gosh again after all this time... just bcause my phones were off n U think that I lie to U again? Did U ever know that your call is what I've always waited for? Did U ever know how much I wanna be with U or just to hear your voice? Did U ever know that I could spend all my time just to be with U? I did ever lie to U, but don't U think that everyone can change? Don't U think that I can change? Don't U ever know that I always try to live my life up to your expectation no matter even if U don't care at all about what I do?

I Don't Know...

Today I heard that U're dating him already... suddenly everything becomes dark n blank... I know I should get out of your life but why seems like so hard for me to do it? Seems like I still wanna care for U n do everything I can for U? Just hope that whatever I do won't be troubles for your relationship... or maybe better for me to end everything?

I really don't know.... I really don't know whether this is the right thing to do or not... I just know that I do love U so much n never be able to get rid of U outta my mind... I don't even know what to think or what to do now... gosh... I really never ask for this feeling... 

U ever asked me why I love U so much... well honestly, I really don't know.. though U never even care for me, still all I wanna do is to make U happy.. just wish could see your smile everyday.. U know why? because it always brights up my day... even the darkest one...

Do U know something? Since I met U, I always wanna be the best I can for U... I always wanna be with U, even though we just chat n doing nothing... but I always treasure every moment I can spend with U... I'm always happy just to hear your voice or listen to your stories...

I do realize that I'm hurt.... I do feel so hurt inside... but I really don't know why I can't get U out of my head n just stop loving U.... especially U're with someone else now n already happy...

I really don't know...

Let Me Do My Part

Did I say something wrong? I only wanna care for U. Never expect something in return. All I ask just accept it... that's all... Am I asking too much? Just wish I could do something for U n make your life easier... but why U always refuse me... so many excuses... afraid to hurt me? I won't... so many people said U shouldn't do that? I never mind, so why would anyone mind if they don't have anything to do with it.

I only wanna care for U n just wish U would accept it... that's all.... I'm not asking U to be my special one or U care for me.. I don't even mind if U choose better with someone else than me since I'm just a jerk... the biggest asshole... I know I'm not worthed for U, but as least let me make myself useful for U... so that U can just share happy moments with him n let me do all the hard works,,,

I rather choose to do all the job n see U going out with him eating, see the movie, share all the happy moments... not doing tasks which I can do it for U... just let me do my part n U just live happily without have to thinking that U have to do something.... that wouldn't be too hard to ask, right?

I know so many people would say that I'm dumb n  a fool, but they don't feel what I feel... I'd rather choose to be a fool but I can see U happy than live my life normally but see U must do all the work even on your weekend... I know U're so busy n don't even have time to rest... It's really killing me inside, U know? I just wanna make your life more comfortable... just let me do all the works n all U have to do just be happy with him n share all the good times together, ok?

So just let me do my part, will U?

Just maybe

Gosh, suddenly just feel so blank. Don't know what to do, don't know what to think.. though actually I should be happy knowing U've got someone else to take care of U n U never be alone...

Somehow I just feel something missing inside... for almost 2 years I know U.. though I don't know U much, but one thing I'm sure... my feelings for U...

I know I messed up... I lied... Though hurting U is the last thing ever crossed my mind... but still I lied...
U know? Somehow I just wish U could understand what I feel, U could realize how much I care for U n really wanna be the best for U though I know I'm far away from perfect...

All I want only to be by your side n cherish U everyday with all love I have....

Maybe... just maybe... someday U'll understand n realize all the feelings n love I have for U is true...

As Long As U're Happy

Again... a nite like this
Again... moment like this
Again... feeling like this
Again... thought like this

Always wondering
Why every time like this
Why feeling like this
Why thinking like this

Everything I do always wrong
Everything I do always meaningless
Everything I do always just a joke
Everything...

Did U ever see
Did U ever know
Did U ever realize
Did U ever care

Everything I do, I only want make situation better for U
I never ask for something in return
I never mind even if U're with someone else
As long as U're happy....

Someday

Can't sleep, don't know what to do..
Gosh always think of U
Always miss U
But guess U never care

I know U never like me
I know U never care
I know U never see me
Though I wish U do

I know I lied about many things
I covered up almost everything
One thing I never lie
I never lie when I said "I love U"

I know so many things I've done wrong
U never see me back then, not now n never
I know U said not to hope for U
But I do love U n I'll do anything...

Just wish U would realize
Just wish U would understand
Just wish U would feel
All the love I have for U... someday

Wondering

Hmmm just don't know what to say now, yet don't know what to think. So many things happened, just don't know which to choose.. all I know is just I like U so much... but U always ignore me... seems like I'm just a friend for U.. or even just a driver maybe.. can we just be together? U always think of him.. always have fun with someone else.. Don't U know that I always wanna be with U? Don't U know that I always think of U? Dream of U every nite? Hope for U in every single pray I do?

Wondering when U will understand the way I feel. Wondering when will U understand the way I want.. just always wanna be with U n always see U happy... Always feel useless every time I know U sad n it breaks my heart to see U cry...

I know I'm nothing for U, yet U're everything to me... U just never notice it... just wish one day U'll see me as a person who always loves n cares for U... I don't expect much though I do know that U're way beyond my league...

Just wish the wind would whisper my feeling for U ^_^

nothing

i'm nothing to u

i'm no one for u

i don't exist to u

i wonder if u ever notice

i wonder if u ever know

i wonder if u ever realize

that u're everything for me

that u mean the world to me...